chillax!!

i dun feel lyk wanna go back

no,act,i reli wana go back

but..

OMG..i dunno wut is going on 2 me now..

im not vry happy afta exam last day

supposedly,i shud be happy rite since all those papers r finished

but i didnt!!

pluf,feel the loneliness when im packing all the things here..

need 2 pack earlier than i tot coz we need 2 move out rite afta im comingback on 28th Aug

n diz morning(6.10 a.m now)

im nervous

dunno why

im supposed 2 b happy rite??

haish!!wake up fara,wake up!!

u r going back TODAY!!

diz is wut u want rite?going home?

so?chillax!!

everything will b fine

both in msia oso in manipal..

dun worry 2 much..

berdoa semoga sampai umah kat Klang ngan selamat dan jayanye..hek..

counting..

exam da abesh

xsaba nk tgu sok..hehe

Jumaat,31/07/09,

7.30 pg : gerak nek bas g bangalore.pjlnan dlm lbeyh kurg 10 jam...

5.30 ptg : smpai airport bangalore.

Sabtu,01/08/09,

1.00 pg : flight bangalore-KLIA (lbeyh kurang pkul 3.30 pagi waktu msia)

7.45 pg (waktu msia) : sampai KLIA

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8.00 pg wktu msia : nga mlantak nasi lemak..hehe..xsaba..^^

tewas

last week,i made a promise.no more tenet.no more chatting,ym,skype all those thing.juz cncntrate on my stdy 4 diz 2 weeks.
yup,i need 2 admit that i break da promiseSSS..damn!!
ni sume sbb physio nye hal r ni...
only few hours left.sok de viva physio.
but then,tmrow mwning still got dissection class
apekah??
dengan portion raju yang sgt distorted n irregular arranged
cam nerve fibre kat sympathetic ganglion dalam kepale hotak ak nih...
walopon begitu,ngan berkat bekalan calcium ion ku yang banyak ni,
ak gagahkan gak sume sarcomeres ak utk bergerak n bkerja.
but then,tewas gak...
akibat brain capacity y smakin rendah tahap dewa apabila jam menunjukkan jam 4 pagi waktu india...sigh...

kala kesejukan pagi2 india nih
dan juga angin2 manja sepoi2 bahase dari laut berhampiran,
plus ketensyenan yan max y bole sbabkan hypertension.
juga tachycardia coz of unstable emotion,
akhrnye ak on9 gak mlm nih...
tp juz tulis blog je keh...nothin more..huhu..y ni seyes xtipu...xwat mende len pon...blogging jeh..=)

makin baca,mkin sedar bnyak y xcver lg...
sdeh...
sdehnye 2 lg sdeh drpd perasaan beraya sorang2 kat india xdapat blik msia...
pecayelah....T_T

confession

ak nk bwat pengakuan hebat kat cni
bhwesenye...
isk...
takutnye nk ckap...
sbnanye..
ak da stat pnat nk blaja mdic nih..
y sdehnye..blum lg lpas 1st year beb!!!
da nk srrender...
ingatkan td nk ckp y ak nyesal amek mdic..
tp rse cm xbek r plak ckp cm2...
so ak tka ayat...
ak da stat rse pnt nk blaja mdic nih...

khamis ni,
de SDL(presentation)-----xprepare 1 habuk pon lg
kne bc deep structure of neck y blambak nk mati-------sm gak,xprepare 1 habuk pon lg

jumaat ni plak,
de EXAM..prac physio...
---y ni kne prepare journl ng theory...
journal 2 kne anta..tp xcyap lg...
theory plak,tgal portion raju..
tp raju suh bce Ganong
y mne ayat dy sgt5 le complicated...
ak rse xptut dy suh ktrg bkak buku y sengal 2 tym2 nk exam nih
sgt xptut...
dh r note dy dlm klas xcomplete...
so tpkse gak bkak Ganong tuh...

xtau mn 1 y perlu ak wat dlu...
y lbih pnting,prac...
kne cyapkan jrnal,bce
kne bc theory gak y blmbak2 tuh
sume kne cyap b4 jmaat...

o wat mne y dlu,ari kmis dlu br ari jmaat...
iaitu wat SDL n deep structures
y ak kira2 page dy pon sgt torturous...

xtau nk wat mn 1 dlu
pnat pk
dr mghrib,
xtdo smpi sbuh pon still xde 1 lg y cyap..
betapa bnyaknye...
penat.
pening kple.
ECG pon semakin flat..
tachycardia coz of emotion y xstabil

dengan selambanya ak tdo dr mgrib td
kul 1 br bgun
rse mnyesal+bdosa glr
2 la bahananye stdy sampai sbuh smlm..
pnat sgt..
hmmm....
ak tensyen
ak tensyen
ak memang ngah tensyen!!!

nk cte kat membr,
dorg pon 2x5 cam ak gak..
nk cte kat mak,t dy risau....
akhirnye nges sorg2..
mkn,nges
solat,nges
stdy,nges
nk tdo pon nges
sbb tnsyen...
sbb xtau nk wat y mn dlu...
wat jrnal,teringat sdl
nk wt sdl,rse bsalah pde jrnal...
nk tdo,rse bdosa...
arghhhh!!!!
bnyak btol perasaan y timbul!!!
ak perlu ngaku
bahawasanya....
ak ngah tensyen
n confuse
xtau nk wat pe dlu...
n ak kne ngaku y ak da stat rse penat stdy mdic...
bg mereka2 di luar cna..
ataupun junior2 ak y nk amek mdic..
pk la 5-6 kali..
dlu a level slalu dpt D sbb susa..
n D 2 bkn perkara pelik..
sume dpt D..dh bese..
but then,still manage 2 get here..
skrg..
mdic ni..
lbeh truk dr a lvl!!!
bayangkan cara stdy ak y menggila ni...
no more stdy last minute...
no more leisure time..
no more!!
no more!!
no more!!
nk balek duk uma ngan mak....T_T
mula2 rase kuat n bole amek mdic
but once u enter da field...
hoho..miserable beb!!!
so...
pk bnyak2 kali klu nk amek mdic..
klu jnis hati keras+rajin bapak lebih rjin dr ak,
pas mghrib g lib blek kul 11
pas2 smbung stdy sampai kul 1 o 2 pagi
pnah gak stdy smpai sbuh..
klas plak dr kul 8-5 ptg..
ha,spe y sgup n lbeh rjen dr ak
silekan...

p/s:Ya Allah..kuatkan semangatku...T_T

searching...

i juz wanna b an ordinary person
wif extraordinary knowledge
ckup sekadar orang blh respect my fmly n i
y penting
my famly n i ckup sumenye dr segala aspek..

p/s:sedang mencari semangat y hilang..excited,coz 3 weeks more 2 go back home..blank coz 2 weeks more 2 block xam..feelingless..xde semangat..lost...teeettt....teeeettt.....teeeeeettttt....sigh..

emosi betoii!!

satu pagi y gelap..hjn trun ngan lebatnye.akpon dok mlepak dlm blk sorg2 mnahan skt prut y sgt5 wat ak xslese nih.pasni de klas lg..adeh..mmg xtahan..bknye xske blaja..bknye xenjoy stdy..ak ske..ak swnok sgt ble dpt blaja pe ak mmg nk blaja dr dlu..tp sdeyh..l8ly mmg bnyk sgt bnd y jd..emosi xstble sgt..smpi nk stdy pon kdg2 nges sorg2..sdeyh btol ble rse cm idop sorg2..mnyebabkan thap ktensyenan ak 2 exceed max level!!dh r 3 mgu lg nk exam block.2nd block ni mmg sgt5 la bulky..adoyaii..xske ble blaja dlm keadaan tpkse..
tp ak tau..klu nk stdy slow2 ikut rentak sndr,,alamatnye..anak dre tua la ak weh..sbnrnye..mslh ak ni xde r bsr sgt pon..sumenye sbb tnsyen stdy je..msalah2 len 2 bese2 je..rmi lg y de prob y bsr2 y still xde solution lg..lg kcian..akunye solution sng je..keep stdy..2 je..da terang2 tuhan tnjuk jln pnylesaian kat ak..ak y buta sgt..sigh..
pesanan utk dr sndr : ko 2 berilmu fara..act like 1 la..ignore everything.pk blik pe niat+tgjwb asal.go 4 dat ONLY!!=)
1 month 2 go b4 blik msia...mishing home..nk blik msia dlm keadaan y puas ati ngan pe y ak jwb tym xam t..

xnak

mlm ni xnk wat sume bnde
xnk stdy
xnk mkn
xnk tdo
xnk duk ngadap lptop
xnk baring
xnk ddk
xnk mnum
xnk ckp ng spe2
xnk kwn spe2
xnk g library
xnk msg sp2
xnk kol sp2
xnk g mn2
xnk ckp pe2
y ak rse cm nk wat..
lari dr hstel smpi end point 100x
smbil dgr lgu
aaarrgghhh!!!
ak tensyen thap dewa!!!
rse nk sepahkan bilik smpi jd stor
pas2 kmas blk smpi jd cam htel
is it possible??

pakej

batuk.

slsme.

skt prt.

png kple.

sume de.

pakej.

sigh..

sigh..

ak rse.....

ak perlu study.

if solving is not working

better get rid of it from ur mind rite?

sigh..

life is crowded.

tough.

sigh..

helpless.I wanna go home

so many things happen lately

hp wosak.

kjap2 on.

kjap2 off

skrg xidop dh.

tpup Rs550,its around rm55 gak r..

tp tpup 2 xmsuk2 pon lg.

y?sbb hp ak asek on off je.

dh msuk 3 mgu xkol uma.

rse cm anak drhaka pon de gak.

bz cket 2-3 mgu ni.

tmrw got PBL.

biochem test plak ari sab2.

isnin anat test.

plus,i couldnt find my i/c

HILANG!!

ak ulang lagi skali

IC AK HILANG!!

now

im blank

wut should i do FIRST??

PBL?

TEST?

FAMILY?

HP?

TPUP?

IC?

BLOCK EXAM?

1 thing dat I`m completely sure is dat

I wanna come back home.

I wanna go home.

mood : helpless

.NOT A GIRL,NOT YET A WOMAN.

The heart of a woman is as big as life.
She initiates conversations with strangers in the bathroom.
She recommends the perfect place to find the perfect dress to a woman she meets at the beauty salon.
She clips coupons to send to her daughter-in-law.
She smiles when she would rather scream; cries when she is happy, and often says "yes" when she means "no."






A woman keeps the refrigerator full just in case someone stops by unexpectedly.
A woman fights for what she believes in by supporting community endeavors with both time and money.
She listens to friends, helps with homework, and gives unconditional loves.
Women cry over their children's accomplishments, during a romantic movie, while reading sentimental cards at a card shop or when opening a special present.
Women openly express happiness when hearing about the birth of a baby, an engagement, or a marriage.
Women share their emotions from their heart.





Women remain strong even when they think they have no strength left.
They comfort loved ones in mourning, visit friends and family who are ill, and offer hugs and kisses to soothe broken hearts.
They write letters, make phone calls, send e-mails and stay in touch.
Simply put, women connect!





Women are present wherever and whenever they are needed.
They intuitively know where to offer their love and support.
Women do more than give birth.
Where a woman is there exists joy and hope.
She brings compassion and companionship.
She gives moral support.
She acknowledges.
She reassures.
Women care!






Women are mothers, daughters, wives, lovers, sisters, aunts, and grandmothers.
They give, they guide, and stay grounded.
They are amazing not only for what they accomplish, but for the values they impart.
Women earn our respect every day not only because of what they do, but because of who they are.




When you are touched by the heart of a woman, and realize how wonderful she is, be sure to let her know.




p/s:im 20,not a gal not yet a women...but by reading diz,im happy 4 da fact dat i`ll be a woman someday^^

kekenyangan..

br pas abesh test physio td..
sgt5 le lapa...
perut da bgendang..
cyap bkompang sume skali..
cam wat kenduri je bnyinye..
haish..

akhrnye kami bramai2 mlangkah ke food court..
sume lapa..
mke da cm ular nmpk zebra dpn mate je..
mkn2..
sembg2..
knyag,blk hostel..


skrg sye sgt le kekenyangan...
nk tdo!!heee..^^
daa~

Ig

bru fara tau y fara xbc lg pasl Ig utk exam sok...




adoyaii.....





















nk pasrah je la..





bc?dh...
tp de gak lpe2 cket...
lathn?xsm4 nk wat...sori..=(











xsaba nk blaja pasl nerve kat kple...
nk tau nrve pe y bmslah kat kple fara ni smpi prsaan tnsyen dan nk blik msia 2 smkin tgi...
mybe ACH tlbeyh secreted kot..=p






haishh...
y da blaja pon xmnyempat nk cvr..
blh plak mnx nk blaja bnd len..
sdar dr 2 cket..
bsyukur ng pe y de..
nk mnx lbeyh2 plak..
saba..









tros study tnpa jemu..
rse da nk mnth..=l

ATTENTION!!

attention2!!

sesape y de hammer,sile la agkat tgn...

tlg ktok kple sy bia sy sdar cket sok xam!

haish..

lg skali mood nk stdy 2 hlg..

kne tiup ng angin kat KMC Greens..

kne tiup smpi Malpe beach..

jauh no mood stdy 2 g..

wahai ngin,

kembalikan smgat stdy sy 2 balik...

tlg la phm keadaan sye..

sy nk stdy...

tp sye xmampu..

sbb sye malas..

mlsnye cam bru lpas mkn..

dlu x cmni...

kenape kat cni br rse mls nk stdy??

sy tau...

musti C7 ak bermasalah..

dy jd penyek sbb tlalu bnyk tdo

parietal cell pon smakin muak ng mknn y msuk..

smpi xlarat nk digest lalu jadilah adipos tissue..

kemalsan melanda apabila malam menjelma..

uurrghh!!

apekah y sy bc sjak mgu lpas??

mate da juling2 nengok bku..

thap ktensyenan smakin tgi lua normality manusia sejagat..

gluteus maximus pula smakin mmbesa sbb duduk lme sgt kat mja stdy..

smkin bnyak y msuk dlm kpale,

semakin bnyk y klua...

knape capacity d kpale sye ini smakin bkurang??

kenape?

kenape?

dan

kenape??

bg mereka2 y genius..

tlg bg tau kat sy kenape..

juga kpde mereka y de hammer bsa gajah,

sile dtg blik sye dak ktuk kple sy..

semoga KMC Greens pulangkn semula mood study saye...

woooo...

haip!!mari bgun stdy!

`start from day 0!!`

wkeyh?^^

y?

sdeyh...saye xnk mncarut dah...

no p**i,b**i,b***h,s****l,b***k all dos stuff...

ump!y td 2 xkire mncrut taw..huhu=p

bnyk bnd y wat sy sdeh..

-stabilizer wosak

-nga tgu laptop plak y wosak(sbb tpkse psg lptop str8 to main plug)

-bnyk xstdy lg..xtau kurun ke brape br abesh

-pe le y ak wat mlm td..klu bgun stdy,kmpem da abesh bc physio..

-sy rse sy xlayak pon amek mdic ni..sbb usaha y sy wat xsetimpal pon..sy nk mrkh dstinction tp apekan daye sye bknlh seorg y kuat study...

-sy sdeyh sbb sy slalu nges..sy xkuat klu de P tp blagak cool

-sy sdeh sbb sbuh pg td sy ttgal..slalu cm2...sy sgt5 pnt smpi bnyi alarm pon xdgr..sy tau Tuhan mrh..T.T

-mlm td sy tgu dy bgun..sy nk dy tman sy stdy..bia sy xtdo..bia sy keep stdy xde nk lyn lptop ni...tp tgu pnye tgu,dy xbgun2...

-sy sdeyh sbb sy nk sum1 y blh pjuk sy...

-sy tau sy xblh nk cte bnd2 ni kat mak sbb t mak rso..

-sy pon tau sy xblh nk cte kat dy sbb dy pon bz stdy

-sy rs idop sy sgt miserable...blk br kmas smlm tp pg ni da bsepah blk...

-ble sy stat nk stdy,ble try nk igt nm2 chemicals y pnjg2 sy jd bgag n fed up

-sy rse sy sgt5 mmbzir dt kat cni...tp result xgmpak pon...

-sbb sy bgun lmbat tyap kali cuti...ptutny sy stdy sbb bnyk lg y sy xcvr...mcm mn nk jwb xam sok ni...

-sy rse cm bdh sgt sbb klu mmbr tnye skln mst sy blank..apekah itu?xpnh blaja pon..

lme2 br saye perasan...sy sdh sbb sy nga xam..emosi mmg xstable tym xam...

so sy pon pjuk r dr sndr cm slalu...

xpe fara..plhn2 k..stdy plhn2..i noe u can..diz is ur dstiny..u mmg akn jd doc..cume u tgal nk tntukan je cmne..either in da best wat or in a stressful way..take it easy..sume org mghadapi bnde y sm..klu de mslh,g je nges kat blk spe2..no need 2 tell them wat happen rite..xyah susahkn org...k?

wkend kol r mmbr2 kat msia...sembg2 ng dorg..i noe u miss `em rite?=)

dere`s no blame on u fara..1st block mmg cmni..for now,keep trying..then next block,btolkn pe y xbtol..k?

try r than ngntk xtdo smpi sbuh..2 je care bia u xtgl sbuh lg..stdy mlm 2..k?at least u nmpk u nye usaha xnk tgl sbuh n usaha nk dpt dstinction marks..

isnt it?^^

now,g bgun,mnd..kmas blk..solat jap..pas2 kua r g bli brg ke jln2 ke..tnangkn kple u 2 cket..

then g lib dscuz anat k..sok xam anat kan..ara ng zaty da tnye2 da ble nk dscuz anat 2..=)

ptg t g ep..ajak f3 ng ckin 2..k?tarik nfas dlm2...hmbus kwat2!!dh,g bgun mnd!!

abah : ok la 2..cuba lg nanti kan ada 2 tahun lagi,misti 100 peratus punya anak abah kan bijak,abah pecaya punya..

tnx abah..

sy wndu umah..T.T

bgun3!!!berusahalah!!!sume org sme..mdic ni adalah pasl `rezeki`..sbb xkan de org y mampu abeshkn bc dan igt sume facts..rezeki org 2,klu pe y dy bc kua xam...

so..hav ur faith in Allah..

keep trying..so dat He`ll giv u something..

dkat dgn Dia..so dat He`ll make everything `cum easier..

wkeh babe?g bgun mnd pat!!=p

BIG smile on my face now..^^

emosi btol mlm ni..haish..

skali lg ak dok sowg2 dlm blik ni...

dgn prut y bbunyi2 dan juga buku y bsepah2..

isk..sdeyhnye idop cmni...

wahai kiwiku y tsyang,saye mahu idop y swonok..

full of fun n laugh

keamanan dan ketenteraman..

saye nk bc bku tp xnk amek xam...

xam wat saye tnsyen sgt2..

dan pnyakit ini muncul ble mlm je..

apekah ini?

new disease hav been discovered!!OMG!!

isk..mcm2 saye nak skrg..

-nk kua date ng edward cullen

-nk f3

-nk tdo

-nk jd doc w/o bc bku

-nk balik uma..T.T

tym2 xam ni..sy sgt2 le cpt trase..

nk mkn tomyam...hauuu~~

terase dr dpinggirkan bile sume org nga bz stdy tp sy bz mlyn lptop..

kenapekah?

hope dat diz block will end tmrow..wanna start da new 1..

nk stdy ngan knsisten skali..hehe...

but fara,wuteva ur dream is,u hav 2 pass diz xam 1st..k?

dats ok..

nxt week abesh suda 1st block...jgn nges2 k..

u bdak bek kan..

i noe diz field is rely tough..

but ur seniors can m8 it rite?

so np u xblh?chill k..

t8 everything as a challenge..

u r a wise,elegant,enjoyable,independent person..

bear dat in mind..k?

now,smile..^^

saye mauk study!!

aim sye utk block ni adalah...saye mauk lpas xam..

(coz its too late 2 cover everything 2 get dat distinction title)=p

saya sayang bun saya=)

mood : hepi...


sbb da bek balik da ng dy..
hehe..

u noe wut kiwi,
ptg td ktrg cm de some argument gak r..
mrh2..skit ati2..
xnk kwan..gado2..
sume2 2..

sgt5 lew sdeyh..
xde mood lgsung nk stdy..
dh r xde crdt... nga baring2 ng tnsyen 2 sume,
ak pon capai ler hp..


`ara,nk pnjm Rs200 dlu blh?ak xdraw dt lg...nk tpup..`


da pnt tgu dlm stgh jam..
ara xrep pon..

fara : ara tdo kowt..


sgt2 xthan sbb ak buzz ym dy pon dy xnk rep..
trus sign out..
mmg mrh btol dy ng ak..huhu



ak pon cyap2 ng spntas klat..zasss!!! (bnyi kilat..)
jln lju2...tap100... (bnyi footsteps..)
smpi atm icici bank 2..draw dt...k-cing4x.. (bnyi Rs2000..)


*dt india x swangi cm dt msia..so mls nk cium..yucks!!=p


laju je ak jln path blik g hostel...
sgt2 sakit jntg+hati ak..
sbb ak sgt5 risau ble dy mrh...
bile dy mrh,mksdny ak da sgt2 mlmpau... (i think so..is it?=p)



tpup..
nek ats..
kol dy..
sgt5 mgecewakan sbb dy xagkt...
sdeyh...


sdeyh lbeyh kurg cmni r..

scene : awan tbe2 gelap..hujan lebat sgt5...
ak dr sorg2 kt tgh2 padang...
xbgerak.xbsuara cket pon.juz pndg rumpt kat bwh..
plus air mata trun bcmpur ng air hjan..
bju bsah..
slipar pon da tglam dlm lecah kat pdg 2..
hehe..


seyes2,sgt sdeyh woo....T_T


then,i called him back...
dh le susa gne std ni..
nk kne dial bnyk no..
cm sngal je..

pas2 dy agkat....


mood : sgt5 ler hepi smpi xbole ckp pe2 dh...air mata je y kua...
hrp sgt2 dy jgn ltak phone....

then,we talked a bit..
find where were da mistake..
apologzd each othr..


pas2 ktrg baik dh...
wut a big relief...phew..


dy mmg slalu mrh2..
tp ak tau mrh2 dy 2 mbebel je..
2 cara dy nk bg tau pe y dy xske...
tp bile dh mrh smpi xagkt kol n xrep ym..
omg..im dead man..
mksdny mmg ak da wat salah y sgt5 besa smpi dy xlarat nk mbebel dh..


pe2 pon...

saya sayang bun saya..=)